this year isnt over yet, but its already been quite an epic year. i feel like i can say that bout every year actually but this year especially has been quite interesting to say the least. ive learned and matured so much more than i ever imagined. tons of unexpected events and situations have hit me left and right and whether good or bad, i can confidently say that ive come out of it stronger and less naive.
ive always been a trusting person, rarely ever doubting people’s word or their actions, and always believing everyone has the best intentions with everything they do. no matter how many times ive seen lies and betrayal happen around me, i never swayed in my belief that everyone is innately GOOD. and that they all want the best for everyone. however, whether i like it or not, this year has opened my eyes. i no longer believe that everyone is a GOOD person. ive seen and experienced first-hand true maliciousness, and words and actions that really were intentionally hurtful. ive seen malicious talk behind others backs, ive seen fakeness, selfishness, and i really wish i didnt have to learn this way, but maybe there really was no other way for me to have my eyes opened to what people are capable of doing to others on a much more deeper level than physical pain.
this semester, i feel like ive never cried more than i ever have in my entire life. ive definitely felt heartache before but nothing like this. and im sure ill have a whole lot more heartbreaks in the future due to what ever situations life may bring, but this year definitely has been quite a load to handle.
but at the same time, a lot of exciting and good things have happened, and im so thankful for them, and thankful for the genuinely GOOD people in my life that i fully trust with all my heart. pinterest once told me “God doesnt give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED, to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you, and to make you the person you were meant to be”.
